Motivation to be Committed

In life, it is not until you make a decision for yourself that you will actually transform. Whether it is choosing to educate yourself, choosing to become more spiritual, choosing to fall in love, choosing to relocate, choosing to befriend someone or choosing to better yourself - YOU have to make the decision.

I have never been the "model size" but I have been comfortable in my skin for the majority of my life. As of late, however, I have felt the need to do better, for myself. I have decided to take action and improve so I am happy with myself. I feel like I will only be the perfect size when I can look at myself naked and love what I am looking at.

Part of my journey, as mentioned in my last post, is to take part in several challenges. January 2012 will be a month of skirt/dress journeys. I think, though I am not fully in love with my size, I can fall in love with my outer appearance. I always make excuses as to why I can't/don't dress up every day. But, now, the excuses stop. Now I know that I am fully capable of looking beautiful for myself daily.

I started this challenge a little early, the 2nd to last week of December. I thought about what I was going to wear, how I was going to dress, what look I was interested in and what hairstyle was the most becoming on me. I tried some new things. I reused some old "tricks".

On December 29th, I went out for a friends birthday. I don't usually take pictures, partially because I do not like how I look in them, often at all. This night, however, a picture was captured. This picture was simply confirmation that now is the right time.

Now is the time that I need to make a change for myself.

"Our commitment has a direct effect on the eternal destiny of others."

This same night, I saw a friend from high school. He let me know that he needed to lose weight and saw my twitter posts about my blog and my goal to blog daily in 2013 as I transform myself. Knowing that my personal decision to help myself is also helping others is amazing.

Being committed is a choice. It is a conscious decision that we have to make, daily. I am committed to helping myself. I am committed to helping others. I am committed to being the best me I can be at all times. Won't you be awesome with me?

These are my 2013 transformation goals:

• Lose 93lbs. on or before December 31, 2013 (losing approximately 2 pounds per week, a healthy and realistic goal)
• Run a 5k in April
• Run a 10k in May
• Run a half marathon in October
• Look good naked by the end of this year
• Wear a bikini before the end of the summer
• Make the biggest lifestyle change of my life: eating right, working out at least 3 times per week and maintaining my goal weight

Transform, 2013 Version

A lot of my friends, instagram followers and twitter followers have asked me to be their accountability partner. As I continue to change my lifestyle, I am motivated by those that I motivate.

Beginning on January 2, 2013, I will be blogging about transforming. Please stay tuned for the following updates (in addition to regular life posts):

• My life as a Shredder (Dr. Ian K. Smith, The Shred Diet) - 6 week challenge
• My 30 Day Fitness Challenge (Mr. Shut Up and Train)
• Training for a 10k (10k for pink mobile app)

I will try my best to post pictures of workouts, recipes for meals I consume, grocery lists that I use, exercises that I actually enjoy, things that keep me motivated, etc. 

In addition to my physical lifestyle change, I am also challenging myself to monthly challenges. January is my "Dress Challenge". For 31 days I will try not to wear pants at all (except to workout of course). We will see how this goes. 

If you have any proposed challenges, feel free to suggest them at any time. I will choose a new challenge each month IN ADDITION to my lifestyle change personal challenges. 

I hope you all enjoy. I hope you all are motivated. I hope you all continue to help motivate me. 

Love. 

Friend, what does that word even mean?

As a child, I don't remember having many friends. I played blocks with my brother. I built forts with my cousins. I cooked with my mom. When I got to elementary school I wanted desperately to have a best friend. Everyone had one. I had this same desire in middle school, high school and college. I didn't have one best friend. And for the other friends, I called a lot of people friend but it wasn't necessarily reciprocated.

At this point, I know a lot of people but how many friends do I actually have?$/5 does the word friend actually mean? How many people could I actually depend on if I truly needed "saving"?

I have a handful of people on that list. But every time I need a friend that list gets a bit smaller.

Be a friend to your friends. You never know when they need it.

The story of an under cover over lover...

There once was a girl. She met a guy. She fell in love. He never gave her his all. She got caught up in her feelings then walked away.

The same girl met a new guy. He fell in love with her. She came around. They were in love with each other.

The girl and the guy stayed in love. But, apparently, the girl never stopped loving the old guy. The girl went out with her guy and saw the old guy. She was indeed "all up in her feelings". She walked away again. This time, she actually felt like she broke up with him.

This is the story of the undercover over lover. She lives in a fairy tale. She is that girl that met that guy. They are happy. But she genuinely loves everyone. She gives her all to everyone. She is great at suppressing her past until it up and walks into her present.

What does the undercover overlover do? She continues to love the guy she's with. She continues to over love him over cover. She moves on. Finally.

Signed ...
The girl, over loving over cover ❤

People Watching

11August2012

I have noticed, as I have gotten older, that I care a lot about people. I am always trying to help and I am always concerned about their well-being. It's interesting to me how many people are the complete opposite. I've never acted to be recognized and my kindness is often overlooked but, I do it anyway. But, now that I am beginning to notice that this is not the norm, I am also beginning to restructure a lot of my "friend"ships.

My father always told me that I would begin to outgrow people... outgrow things... and outgrow relationships. It used to be hard to say "I cant do this anymore." But now, I am able to just phase myself out of the equation.

My happy factor has been rising and rising and rising the less people I communicate with and try to keep in touch with. It's really a new sense of my breath of fresh air.

I'll keep watching... as I keep living.

g.