fyi.....
...garnet.terri... is taking a hiatus from the blogsphere.
emails are welcomed .... garnetterri@gmail.com
....until.
g.
15 December 2008
11 December 2008
[[52WeeKS]]
11, december, 2008
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((thoughts)) "Imagine waking up one morning and finding a piece of yourself you didn't even know existed." - Jodi Picoult -
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((words)) Every day of my life, I live to learn. I live to experience something that will have a positive impact on me. In my quest to change the world, I must make an attempt to let life happen; controlling that which I can, but, accepting that which I can not. I made a promies [52 weeks] to let go... let go of those that have an unnecessary hold on my life; let go of that which keeps me sheltered; let go of the things that knowingly make me unhappy. It is amazing how much I shield other people's feelings in order to protect our relationship(s) - but, that just adds tension to me and mine. So far, I have realized its the simple things that make me happy. I speak as I desire. I think uncontrolled thoughts. I suppress feelings. If I love you, I tell you. If I like you, I tell you. But, if I don't desire to carry you into the next season - - - I freeze. I freeze solid in my tracks as if I'm a child that is not tall enough to climb out of the avalanche. I walk blindly, trying my darndest not to hurt whomever is ahead of me. But, then I remember my place. My place is a sheltered place. I am supposed to listen and not speak. I am supposed to agree, not show an opinion. Right? Wrong! The people I met then didn't know me, but I was young and naive. I looked up to them. But, the me I was then is not the me I am now. [52 weeks] I will not reach the complete Garnet until I wake up at the gates of heaven - because then I would've learned everything God needed me to know. I apologize for hurting you, dissapointing you or upsetting you. I'm glad I excited you, made you smile, made you happy. But - 52 weeks - we will see where I am, where the road leads me and where the wind blows me. In 52 weeks I will be happy. I will be changed. I will be alone. This is my solidarity. This is my serenity. I ate, now I will pray, but all in all i will love: most importantly, myself first than others. [52 weeks]
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((the purpose)) i am not a writer. i am a thinker. i am not an adult. i am, merely, a child living in an adults world. i am not perfect. i try to love, more than anything else. i try to help, even if i am not sure how. but my purpose is to change the world. yes, i have big dreams, i have high hopes, and i have enough faith to claim it as my reality. no, i am not trying to change the world because of Barack Obama. no, i am not trying to change the world because there is a recession. i am trying to change the world because i was born. i was not born to ride on the backs of my ancestors. i was not born to walk the path of the former walking abled people. i was not born to assist in the projects that were once started by someone that is now famous. i am here to make a difference based on what i know, what i love, what i cherish and the vision i have.
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i am in japan, yes. i am a teacher, yes. i love my children, yes. if someone asked me who my idol was, i would say noone because i do not idolize anyone in the flesh. but, if someone, in turn, asked me who my hero was i would say them. well, who is them? them are the children that i teach. them are the children i have yet to teach. them are the children that i met when i volunteered. them are the girls that i was a big sister to in college. them are the youth in the world that are naive to the bitterness and hate of life. i may be mature, but my maturity comes form paying attention and knowing my place. why children? children still have hope, adults are usually set in their ways. you can help children be what they want to be, because they think the sky is the limit, as they should.
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... [52 weeks] will continue.
...please come again,
g.
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((thoughts)) "Imagine waking up one morning and finding a piece of yourself you didn't even know existed." - Jodi Picoult -
.
.
((words)) Every day of my life, I live to learn. I live to experience something that will have a positive impact on me. In my quest to change the world, I must make an attempt to let life happen; controlling that which I can, but, accepting that which I can not. I made a promies [52 weeks] to let go... let go of those that have an unnecessary hold on my life; let go of that which keeps me sheltered; let go of the things that knowingly make me unhappy. It is amazing how much I shield other people's feelings in order to protect our relationship(s) - but, that just adds tension to me and mine. So far, I have realized its the simple things that make me happy. I speak as I desire. I think uncontrolled thoughts. I suppress feelings. If I love you, I tell you. If I like you, I tell you. But, if I don't desire to carry you into the next season - - - I freeze. I freeze solid in my tracks as if I'm a child that is not tall enough to climb out of the avalanche. I walk blindly, trying my darndest not to hurt whomever is ahead of me. But, then I remember my place. My place is a sheltered place. I am supposed to listen and not speak. I am supposed to agree, not show an opinion. Right? Wrong! The people I met then didn't know me, but I was young and naive. I looked up to them. But, the me I was then is not the me I am now. [52 weeks] I will not reach the complete Garnet until I wake up at the gates of heaven - because then I would've learned everything God needed me to know. I apologize for hurting you, dissapointing you or upsetting you. I'm glad I excited you, made you smile, made you happy. But - 52 weeks - we will see where I am, where the road leads me and where the wind blows me. In 52 weeks I will be happy. I will be changed. I will be alone. This is my solidarity. This is my serenity. I ate, now I will pray, but all in all i will love: most importantly, myself first than others. [52 weeks]
.
.
((the purpose)) i am not a writer. i am a thinker. i am not an adult. i am, merely, a child living in an adults world. i am not perfect. i try to love, more than anything else. i try to help, even if i am not sure how. but my purpose is to change the world. yes, i have big dreams, i have high hopes, and i have enough faith to claim it as my reality. no, i am not trying to change the world because of Barack Obama. no, i am not trying to change the world because there is a recession. i am trying to change the world because i was born. i was not born to ride on the backs of my ancestors. i was not born to walk the path of the former walking abled people. i was not born to assist in the projects that were once started by someone that is now famous. i am here to make a difference based on what i know, what i love, what i cherish and the vision i have.
.
i am in japan, yes. i am a teacher, yes. i love my children, yes. if someone asked me who my idol was, i would say noone because i do not idolize anyone in the flesh. but, if someone, in turn, asked me who my hero was i would say them. well, who is them? them are the children that i teach. them are the children i have yet to teach. them are the children that i met when i volunteered. them are the girls that i was a big sister to in college. them are the youth in the world that are naive to the bitterness and hate of life. i may be mature, but my maturity comes form paying attention and knowing my place. why children? children still have hope, adults are usually set in their ways. you can help children be what they want to be, because they think the sky is the limit, as they should.
.
.
.
... [52 weeks] will continue.
...please come again,
g.
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