05 August 2010

real eyes realize real lies, part 2

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on the fourth day of august I had a conversation,
and, on the the fifth day of august in the year of two thousand ten,
i wrote about it
this is it
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it is always interesting to both hear people talk about love and discuss love with other people
i seemingly view love differently
for all of you bible readers out there, 1 Cor 13 is what people should "view" love as

love is patient, love is kind .....

so many people are functioning based on pure likeability.
people do things out of spite because they do not like what a person did to them
people spoil others because they liked what the other did to them
but its not about likeability
its about love

in love, we need space and consistency. as i told my bff, sporadic consistency may just be best
i need to know when you need to be alone
but i also need to know when you need me close by
be it platonic love, romantic love, familial love ...
the type of love does not matter
the fact that it is love means you need to treat it as such

when i was little my mother said (after one of my lying sprees, as children do): "i have to love you, i am your mother, therefore i always will; however, if you lie to me, i will not trust you, and if i do not trust you, i can not like you."

in life, my focus is love. i want to love you, always, all of you.
yes, you will get on my nerves and push my buttons,
but that does not mean i need to stop loving you.
yes, you will probably hurt me emotionally,
but that does not mean i need to stop loving you.

someone once said "you can never be a fool in love, it is those that reject love that become the fools"

i agree totally and completely with that
love is not tit for tat
it is never 50/50
because i may be loving you the best i know how
and it may just not be good enough
you may be loving me the best you know how
and it may just not be good enough
but, if its love, it will forever be good enough
because "love always wins."

at the end of the day, when all is said and done, i have your best interest at heart
even if we never speak again, i have loved you. i do love you. and, i always will love you.
there is nothing greater than the action of love.
there is nothing better than the feeling of love.
there is nothing more genuine than to be in love.

experiencing love is a roller coaster ride
its not what others always say
yes flowers are involved, and exotic vacations
but when its love
"being stuck in the basement, sitting on a tricycle"
is still one of the best experiences you could ever have

love always,
g.

02 August 2010

...like you'll never see me again

the second day of august in the year of two thousand ten

If you didn't have any time left to be wherever you are right now, would you cherish the things that you experienced there? If you could never see the last person you saw, how would that change your life? If you could never speak to the last person you spoke to, would you care?

Life is taken for granted far too often.

It's interesting how people continue to live without attaining what they want. To me, thats simply existing, and I'm just not interested. There are a few things I have always wanted:

1. to help people
2. to be in a mutual love (have a husband, and children: a family!)
3. be happy

To some, the three aforementioned items are simple. But, I don't think you can be a fool in love. I am, however, a firm believer that those that do not accept love are the fools. Why do so many people settle. They settle with jobs instead of searching for a career. They settle with like instead of working for love. They settle ... in life ... thinking they will have a second a chance, or a chance to do this forever.

My brother once said, "I knew (she) was the one because I could replace her in songs that used (God)." #deep First, I thought he was psycho. But now, after pondering on that statement, God is love. If you can not sing about going to work, you probably don't love your job. If you can't sing about your friends, you probably don't love those friends. If you can't sing about your life, you probably don't love your life. Why risk losing/not attaining happiness by forcing love out of your life when you could simple let love happen?

In case you are wondering, yes, I love you.

g.