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27.november.2008
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in a place where they do not observe, reserve, or celebrate the best holiday in my book, i still give thanks. every day i wake up and give thanks for another day in the life, my life.
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i am thankful for GOD, my mother, my father, my brother, my life. I am thankful for my best friend, my breath, and my sexy six. I am thankful for Toy and Jai, Jin and Jay. I am thankful for Yoshi. I am thankful for my experiences, my opportunities, and my travel experience(s). I am thankful for my generational gaps in my family (yes, they are ridiculously significant to me). I am thankful for love...
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i could go on for seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years, decades, generations, centuries, eternity .....
Thanksgiving is not just a day, it is a lifelong experience.
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I am thankful for life, but surprisingly, I am thankful for death. I am thankful for babies, yet I am thankful for adults. I am thankful for lyrics, and I am thankful for rhythms. I am thankful for food, but also thankful for hunger. I am thankful for sight, but also thankful for blindness. I am thankful for hearing, but deafness. I am thankful for endowments, and struggles. I am thankful for debates and agreements. I am thankful for intellect and ignorance. I am thankful for all that makes me whole, and the things that make me incomplete ... for those things are what keep me living instead of merely existing.
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happy thanksgiving,
what are you thankful for?
26 November 2008
13 November 2008
rememberance....
13. November. 2008
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Remembering Fall 2008. May You All Rest in Peace.
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. Lille Mae Jordan Tabor
. Zenobia Hikes
. Leon Gillard
. Mrs. Oatis
. Delthea Bryson
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Remembering Fall 2008. May You All Rest in Peace.
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. Lille Mae Jordan Tabor
. Zenobia Hikes
. Leon Gillard
. Mrs. Oatis
. Delthea Bryson
09 November 2008
21 years, + 1
(november 10, 2008)
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. . the scene:
. november 11, 2007 8:20 pm .
. location: cheesecake factory, atlanta, ga
. it all started with a birthday dinner with me and the bro in atlanta georgia. we had just had a crazy talk with the waitress about how we were twins, and she was a twin too. then my mother called, my phone, to speak to my brother, yeah, that was weird. anywho, she told him whatever she told him and he then handed the phone to me. i was slightly confused because he had a blank stare on his face. well earlier that day a friend called me to ask me how i was because of the unwanted circumstances. but i digress. my mother then asked to speak with me as the words left her mouth ... i could tell she had been crying "geeper died." thats all i got, so i was confused, clearly. "um, what do u mean?" clearly i am intelligent and i know what death is and i know who geeper was so why didnt those words mean anything to me at that point. she spoke longer and longer but the room just stopped, the air stopped, the noise stopped, i think i went deaf temporarily, then i chimed back in. "mom, my brother died today?" she responded "yes." i dont even remember saying i love you to her, or good bye, i think i just hung up the phone. we sat in silence for a minute, got our dessert to go, i think, and said "we have to go now." my brother wouldn't let me go home i had to go to his place and i had to sleep on the couch our brother gave him for his apartment. i couldnt sleep all night. i was in such shock, in awe, just confused. which, to me, was rather interesting, because i had the feeling a month earlier oct. 19th while receiving the news about Fe. life is crazy sometimes. its crazy how you play this game knowing you cant get out alive .... its crazy.
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. so, again, i ask... "what do you say about a man that leaves you speechless, not because you do not have any words to say but because the words you think up are not good enough." what do you say about a man that is kind, intelligent, loving, silly, admirable, honest and God-fearing. what do you say about a man that was always there for you even when you dont remember asking him to be. what do you say about a man that leaves your life, because God called him home. all i can think to say is "thank you God, and Geep I love you."
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.God - i say thank you for allowing him into heavens gates with no hesitation. i say thank you for letting me have him for so long. i thank you for letting him be a son, and a husband. i thank you for letting him be a brother and an uncle. i thank you for letting him be a godfather and love sports. i thank you for giving him a voice that quiets every noise. i thank you for giving him the jokes to keep me smiling. i thank you for giving him the drive to work through the pain. i thank you for his rumination of love. i thank you for his spirit. i thank you for not letting him suffer. i thank you for the liberation.
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.Geep, i say i love you because i mean it. i say i love you because you helped me through so much and taught me so much more. i love you because you were a brother to me. i love you because you loved me. i will never forget what was said that day in july leaving the car wash and heading to the potato place. im not sure why you said it, but i thank you for saying it. im sure it was God telling me and not u, but i got the message. this has been the longest year of my life, it has seemed like forever. but im thankful for the 21 years before this one ... they will forever be in my mind heart and spirit. i miss you, and i love you.
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. always, garnet.terri
. oh, im sure you had a party but, Obama won! im sure he appreciates your vote too ;-)
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. . the scene:
. november 11, 2007 8:20 pm .
. location: cheesecake factory, atlanta, ga
. it all started with a birthday dinner with me and the bro in atlanta georgia. we had just had a crazy talk with the waitress about how we were twins, and she was a twin too. then my mother called, my phone, to speak to my brother, yeah, that was weird. anywho, she told him whatever she told him and he then handed the phone to me. i was slightly confused because he had a blank stare on his face. well earlier that day a friend called me to ask me how i was because of the unwanted circumstances. but i digress. my mother then asked to speak with me as the words left her mouth ... i could tell she had been crying "geeper died." thats all i got, so i was confused, clearly. "um, what do u mean?" clearly i am intelligent and i know what death is and i know who geeper was so why didnt those words mean anything to me at that point. she spoke longer and longer but the room just stopped, the air stopped, the noise stopped, i think i went deaf temporarily, then i chimed back in. "mom, my brother died today?" she responded "yes." i dont even remember saying i love you to her, or good bye, i think i just hung up the phone. we sat in silence for a minute, got our dessert to go, i think, and said "we have to go now." my brother wouldn't let me go home i had to go to his place and i had to sleep on the couch our brother gave him for his apartment. i couldnt sleep all night. i was in such shock, in awe, just confused. which, to me, was rather interesting, because i had the feeling a month earlier oct. 19th while receiving the news about Fe. life is crazy sometimes. its crazy how you play this game knowing you cant get out alive .... its crazy.
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. so, again, i ask... "what do you say about a man that leaves you speechless, not because you do not have any words to say but because the words you think up are not good enough." what do you say about a man that is kind, intelligent, loving, silly, admirable, honest and God-fearing. what do you say about a man that was always there for you even when you dont remember asking him to be. what do you say about a man that leaves your life, because God called him home. all i can think to say is "thank you God, and Geep I love you."
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.God - i say thank you for allowing him into heavens gates with no hesitation. i say thank you for letting me have him for so long. i thank you for letting him be a son, and a husband. i thank you for letting him be a brother and an uncle. i thank you for letting him be a godfather and love sports. i thank you for giving him a voice that quiets every noise. i thank you for giving him the jokes to keep me smiling. i thank you for giving him the drive to work through the pain. i thank you for his rumination of love. i thank you for his spirit. i thank you for not letting him suffer. i thank you for the liberation.
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.Geep, i say i love you because i mean it. i say i love you because you helped me through so much and taught me so much more. i love you because you were a brother to me. i love you because you loved me. i will never forget what was said that day in july leaving the car wash and heading to the potato place. im not sure why you said it, but i thank you for saying it. im sure it was God telling me and not u, but i got the message. this has been the longest year of my life, it has seemed like forever. but im thankful for the 21 years before this one ... they will forever be in my mind heart and spirit. i miss you, and i love you.
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. always, garnet.terri
. oh, im sure you had a party but, Obama won! im sure he appreciates your vote too ;-)
06 November 2008
hmmmm...
6. November. 2008
so - i dont really have anything to say.
but, as promised, for the next 8 years of my life
(minus those days that i dont have access to the internet)
i will comment on the wonderful changes being made in my nation!
yes its mine ... i own it, just kidding.
but seriously - our nation has made some major strides,
in the past year and 9 months!
in february of 2007 a qualified black man ran for presidency.
no, not the first to run, but the first to get nominated,
the first to win!
barack obama, seen through the eyes of men and women, children, dogs, random animals,
martians, mutants, angels and GOD is the president of the USofA.
...one nation, under GOD!
thank God it is an OBAMAnation ...
thats love.
((i am garnet and i approve this message!))
but, as promised, for the next 8 years of my life
(minus those days that i dont have access to the internet)
i will comment on the wonderful changes being made in my nation!
yes its mine ... i own it, just kidding.
but seriously - our nation has made some major strides,
in the past year and 9 months!
in february of 2007 a qualified black man ran for presidency.
no, not the first to run, but the first to get nominated,
the first to win!
barack obama, seen through the eyes of men and women, children, dogs, random animals,
martians, mutants, angels and GOD is the president of the USofA.
...one nation, under GOD!
thank God it is an OBAMAnation ...
thats love.
((i am garnet and i approve this message!))
05 November 2008
prayers...
5. november. 2008
...for Obama
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Prayer of Thanksgiving with the election of President Elect Barack Obama
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God we thank you for the election of President Elect Barack Obama. We thank you for showing us in him a new song to sing. We thank you for his example of diligent hard work, careful planning, inclusion and involvement on every level for every person who desired to participate. In his election we see living proof that you have not forgotten your children who were brought to these shores in slavery, endured the indignity of segregation, and the crises of contempt in modern civilization. We pray for the safety of our new president and his family. We pray that you will order his steps in a way that is pleasing to you. We pray that his election will not only increase prosperity and wealth in America, but that it will spark a positive change in attitude around the world. Under his leadership we pray that America will find new ways to feed the hungry, heal the sick, provide work to those who are unemployed, care for the elderly , educate the young and lead a war torn world to the altar of peace. Through Jesus Christ our Lord we pray. Amen.
God we thank you for the election of President Elect Barack Obama. We thank you for showing us in him a new song to sing. We thank you for his example of diligent hard work, careful planning, inclusion and involvement on every level for every person who desired to participate. In his election we see living proof that you have not forgotten your children who were brought to these shores in slavery, endured the indignity of segregation, and the crises of contempt in modern civilization. We pray for the safety of our new president and his family. We pray that you will order his steps in a way that is pleasing to you. We pray that his election will not only increase prosperity and wealth in America, but that it will spark a positive change in attitude around the world. Under his leadership we pray that America will find new ways to feed the hungry, heal the sick, provide work to those who are unemployed, care for the elderly , educate the young and lead a war torn world to the altar of peace. Through Jesus Christ our Lord we pray. Amen.
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(Please share this prayer)
Written by Rev. Nicholas Hood III
Pastor of the Plymouth United Church of Christ
600 E. Warren Ave.
Detroit, Michigan 48201
www.puccdetroit.org
(Please share this prayer)
Written by Rev. Nicholas Hood III
Pastor of the Plymouth United Church of Christ
600 E. Warren Ave.
Detroit, Michigan 48201
www.puccdetroit.org
...no.words.
i think,
for the next 8 years,
every day i am going to write somewhere
I HAVE A BLACK PRESIDENT!
(garnet approves that message)
just for giggles
for the next 8 years,
every day i am going to write somewhere
I HAVE A BLACK PRESIDENT!
(garnet approves that message)
just for giggles
04 November 2008
speechless...
Barack Obama is president of the United States of America.
So sad, but McCain conceded.... oh well.
I want every paper in the world on my doorstep.
Wow!
Im speechless.
Even in Japan, they love Obama!
So sad, but McCain conceded.... oh well.
I want every paper in the world on my doorstep.
Wow!
Im speechless.
Even in Japan, they love Obama!
03 November 2008
change.hope.history.
today is november 4th 2008
it is the day that this chapter of history will be completed.
now, in the completion of history one of two things can happen,
the outcome is unknown right now.
but Barack Obama made history becoming the first black democratic nominee.
now, election day is here...
nervous.anxious.excited.
history in the making...
it is the day that this chapter of history will be completed.
now, in the completion of history one of two things can happen,
the outcome is unknown right now.
but Barack Obama made history becoming the first black democratic nominee.
now, election day is here...
nervous.anxious.excited.
history in the making...
01 November 2008
11.02.1986
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((written in the last moments of 21hood))
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As I think about my life in these days, in these times, I am eternally grateful for favor. I have chosen to start my new year off with a clean head, a clean heart, a clean spirit, a clean house, clean everything. I feel like age is irrelevant if you dont grow and mature. "When I was a child I thought like a child, [I acted like a child, I ate like a child, I played like a child, I did everything like a child]... but when I became a (wo)man..." Every day I praise God for the favor He has bestowed upon me. When I entered college all I planned was to graduate in May of 2008 with a job making at least what my parents spent for my first year of undergrad. Well, so far so good - I graduated in December of 2007 and had a job that started me out with a salary HIGHER than that of which my parents paid for my first year of undergrad. Halle! Now that, that is favor. As I look at my life I realize a few things (as mentioned in a previous post). But, there are things that I cannot change, I accept them, but for those things that I can change, I am making an honest attempt to do so. I am Garnet, genuinely affectionate, respectful, naive, energetic and tenacious ... and with qualities like that, why can't I have a perfect life. Now, God may not have made us perfect, but how exactly does one define perfection. God put me on this Earth with a mission and a purpose. As long as I try my best to fulfill that purpose, my life is perfect. My happiness is granted in everything that I do because all everything I do is going to work towards the betterment of society and fulfilling my purpose.
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I have noticed that I am talented. I can do things on my own. My parents raised me to be interdepent but dependent in my solidarity. I plan to keep moving in the direction I am headed because where can I go from here? Up! I can go up towards the heavens, because thats where my eternity lies. I can go up towards educational advanacement because I have the ability and drive to do so. I can go up on the health chart - why not live a full healthy life? I mean hey, I do control that! I can go up on the fun chart ... everything I do can be fun, I mean, the only people that get bored are boring people, right Mo? I can go up in religion, up in spirituality, up in fashion, up in honesty, up in friendship, up in interdependency, up in familial respect, up in love, up in life. And as my numbers go up and up and up, I plan to grow and mature and season myself into "one that leaves people speechless, not because they don't have anything to say but because the words they think up are not good enough." I want to live a life to make those that preceeded me in death happy. I want to live a life that makes my parents proud. I want to live a life that puts a smile on my brothers face. I want to live a life that makes me happy. But, most importantly, I want to live!
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I no longer want to exist, because, quite frankly, I think thats what I have been doing. I do not want to plan so much, I just want life to happen. I do not want to control much, I just want things to fall into place. I do not want to restrict myself, why not try everything once? I want to live in prosperity. My favorite number is two so I claim this to be one of the best years of my life. I said once that I made the best choice to come to Japan, now, I am making my next choice my even better best choice ... to live, love, laugh ... that is my goal for the next 365 calendar days, and the beginning of the rest of my life.
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Not sure of how many people will read this, or even care that I wrote this, but I do know this will be the happiest birthday I could possibly have. I love me and you should too ;-) Happy birthday to the jewel that was created 22 years ago today.
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Love.
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