The Conversation
So, you two are together? MMMMMMMMMM ... idk! But we are close. You don't know if you are together, but you are close? Is he a witness (Jehovah's Witness)? I wish. Ok, so, if he's not a witness why are you pursuing him? I thought you wanted to do this correctly. I am. He creeped in somehow. I have been praying about my desires. ...ok; so wait, seriously, isn't it counterproductive to be with this man? seriously ... it is (cant watch face) so, why are you torturing yourself? ... (embarassed face) ... I don't think this is a good idea. He is older and is probably thinking about marriage in the very near future. If you wouldn't marry him, I think you should end this - just my two cents. Don't think I haven't thought about this extensively, and ALL that would come of it. So you're going to pray yourself through a situation that you will never be comfortable with? Seriously, would you marry him? Be honest. I'm not praying to make it work. I don't know him well enough to tell you if he would be my husband. I'm praying I really weigh my options and be real with myself about the difficulty of marrying someone that doesn't have my fate. I can see us being together. Not my question, its not about knowing him well enough. I wouldn't marry and Atheist or a Muslim simply because I am a Christian and our faith base is totally different. So, I would never date one, I don't care how much I liked him. Ever? Ever. I mean, you are RIGHT. Our practices are too different and it would complicate rearing children. No ifs ands or buts about it? I have nothing against Muslims or Atheists and will surely be their friend. That's what's most important, the kids. And, you have a daughter. I feel you. You could confuse her with his faith if you'd like. And, I plan on having more (children). Just things to consider. I feel you. Im not trying to confuse her. What you are saying is right and things I think about daily and just need to apply.
The Blog
Why, moreso than not, do people do things with people that they have no business doing? People date to get to know each other more deeply in preparation of marriage. If you know they are not someone you would marry, why do you date them? Literally, we are overanalyzing valuable emotions. The valuable emotion (love) is being taken for so much more than it needs to be taken for.
People think "i love him" is going to save them from abuse. People think "i love him" is going to save them from pain. People think "i love him" is going to save them from heartache. People think "i love him" is going to save the children from confusion. People think "i love him" is going to save them from divorce. People think "i love him" will get the bills paid. People think "i love him" will keep him from cheating. (this does go both ways, i love him, i love her, keyword being love) Love is simply that ... LOVE.
Love is an emotion. Love is a feeling. Love is a choice. Love is a decision. You, whether consciously or subconsciously vow to love someone, for however long you choose to do so. I, personally, choose to love everyone. But I walk into love knowing everyone I choose to love will not be in my life forever. People have reasons for being in my life.
People are in my life to teach me lessons, to make me feel feelings, to help me overcome situations and to simply be a stepping stone to something greater. In the aforementioned conversation, it may or may not be love; but it is definitely a lesson.
If you pray for a man, a husband, God will send you that - at least, that is my belief. However, I think God will also test you. He will see if you are patiently waiting or anxiously waiting. In the situation above, it seems a little more like anxiety than anything else. If the apple is eaten, God knows this Eve is not quite ready for her Adam. Not that He will give up on the delivery, but he will indeed postpone it. Again, my belief.
So, what do you do? Do you continue to literally, overanalyze valuable emotions? Or, will you be patient and walk in the faith that you claim to have and want to have and wait for your LOVE to come for you?
just thoughts,
ahava.
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