...in other news.

28, june, 2009

I cannot believe I have 23 weeks left in Japan. Ten months ago I embarked on a journey. I took a step forward when I could have taken a step back. I didn't think, possibly when I should have. But, regardless of what shouldve couldve or wouldve happened, I am here and I am loving it. It has been an amazing journey. I have learned a lot. I have learned about myself. I have learned about others. I have learned about relationships. I have learned about desires. I have learned about love. I have learned about reality. I have learned about dreams. I have learned about needs. So many things have happened that have changed my outlook on life. I am anxious to see what will happen when I get back to the states. I am anxious to see how I will react to the world, the world I used to know. I wonder if relationships will be the same or would have changed. I wonder if my interested will have changed. I wonder how many things will be the same.

I recommend, at this point in your life you do the unthinkable. If you have a want, work towards it. Maybe, if people stop thinking and just do, in their reaching for the untouchable, people will touch their wants and it will become their reality. I wonder ...

gambatte.

faith is amazing!

so today is a GREAT day!

the devil gave me my stuff back,

i feel amazing.

its wonderful.

have a great day!

Why Will (I) Get Married?

http://www.essortment.com/lifestyle/whennotgetm_sjit.htm

come rain, come shine

I'm gonna love you
Like nobody's loved you
Come rain or come shine
High as a mountain and deep as a river
Come rain or come shine

Well I guess when you met me
That it was just one of those things
Don't you ever bet me
Cause I'm gonna be true if you let me

Oh you're gonna love me
Like nobody's loved me
Come rain or come shine
Happy together unhappy together
Won't that be fine

Day may be cloudy or sunny
We're either in or we're out of our money
I'm with you always
I'm with you rain or shine

You're gonna love me
Like nobody's loved me
Come rain or come shine
Happy together unhappy together
Won't that be fine

Day may be cloudy or sunny
We're in or we're out of our money
I'm with you always
I'm with you rain or shine
Rain or shine
I'm with you always
I'm with you rain or shine

((not my words, but these words are amazing))

24.may.09

NEW PICTURES!!!!!!!

please, view them at your leisure.

g.

... sacrificial blessings

May 10, 2009

Greetings all ... 

I have not blogged lately about my journey. I have talked about lent. I have talked about love. But, I have yet to talk about life ... well, recently.

For those of you religious heads, spiritual minds, and those that simply believe in something larger than yourself, you should be familiar with sacrificial blessings. Sacrifice, as defined by www.dictionary.com, is "the surrender or destruction of something prized or desirable for the sake of something considered as having a higher or more pressing claim." 

Well, part of the reason I came to Japan was to sacrifice myself. I know that sounds crazy, right? Well, I, Garnet, am a very caring being. I often put others before myself. I am often selfless when I should (could) be selfish. And, for me, I needed to sacrifice. I needed to sacrifice myself for, well, myself. In moving, I sacrificed comfortability. In moving, I sacrificed knowledgeability. In moving, I sacrificed functionality. In moving, I sacrificed everything I have come to know for something I had no idea about. This, so far, has been the best move of my life. I do not think I understood the full meaning of a sacrificial blessing, but, now, I have my own interpretation.

I have sacrificed comfort, function, knowledge, habit... for a life that I now love. The blessings have been amazing and I just realized how to take advantage of them. One, a friend and I went to a church service, the pastor said "Oh Lord, baby girl, you've been missing out on your blessings, you need to step aside." Well, for me, that was hard, that is hard, that may always be hard. But, being here has made it a bit easier. 

What I have gained from this experience is MORE than amazing. 

Right before coming here I "lost" my most recent inspiration. August 21st was hard for me, but, it restored something in me. It's not the big things in life that make you happy ... well, at least for me. Things that make you happy are the things that are the most simplistic. Being in Japan I have realized what I love has always been right at my finger tips, but I continue to shoo it away, not because I want to, but because others suggest it. Now, again, sacrifice. I would rather sacrifice the "relationship" of someone that is guarding my happiness so I can reach my blessing than hold on to the "relationship" and miss out on the blessing. Everything has a season, we have all heard that.

I have sacrificed bonding with those that I thought were near and dear to me to spend most of my time with 4 year olds that don't speak English and like to climb all over me. But, I was able to realize what I am working for. My road has not been travel, so it is the hardest journey to be on. I don't have a path to follow, I am creating my own. I don't have a support system that has been there, so I have no stories of advice. But, as for me, God's got this. I'd rather sacrifice a Range Rover and a few shopping trips to Saks to impact the children that cannot help themselves. My dream is my blessing and it is definitely attainable. 

Right now, I am living out my sacrifice in order to receive my blessings. Japan is the best thing that has ever happen to me. And, as always, I will make my next move my best move.

Thank you for loving me. Thank you for living with me. Thank you for waiting for my "Lent" to be over.

until ... 

g.

((10, may, 2009))

...if it isn't love...

May 4, 2009

If it isn’t love ….

 

“If it isn’t love, why do I feel this way why does (s)he stay on my mind?”

People sometimes talk about love, and what they do in love. But, love is an action word.

 

love

     [luhv]  Show IPA noun, verb, loved, lov⋅ing.

–noun

1.	a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

 

2.	a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

 

3.	sexual passion or desire.

 

4.	a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

 

5.	(used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

 

6.	a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.

 

7.	sexual intercourse; copulation.

 

8.	(initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.

 

9.	affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.

 

10.	strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.

 

11.	the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.

 

12.	the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.

 

13.	Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.

 

14.	a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.

 

 

“what will be the topic for today?”

“love and war!”

 

First up, expectations….

“what do you expect in love?”

 

One kind gentlemen feels this way…

“Well i expect truth and honesty. i believe with those two there is nothing else that wont follow. truth will keep all in respect and honesty will keep those perceptions in line with truth”

 

Good answer … but, part two, “what do you give?”

He feels that…

“i give all of me whether thats emotions or advice or whatever it may be. i give it all”

 

 

Ok, I can dig that, but lets do some role reversing, “what about you, what do u expect in love?”

 

She says…

"I expect sacrifice and comfort

trust is earned so i never expect it because i dont trust people usually ...

when in love i expect you to be close to God, in the sense you are not even CLOSE to the other friends, ur the bestie ... hands down, no questions asked. if God took everything away from me, id pray he didnt take you type of friend"

 

He  liked this ....

 

But, she offered more … 

“love is an action word ... and, well, talk is cheap

im a simple girl that likes simple things

dont buy me things, i can do that myself

send me an "i love you" because thats what you were thinking, mail me a card that says "hi" because u know i get lonely, sacrifice your sleep because you know i need to hear you breathing ... be there”

 

In the end, its not about how many times you say it. Its not about how much you can conjure up some words. Its about what you do. What will you do for love? Will you sacrifice a bit of your happiness and comfort? God is love, right? HE gave it all! Now, Im not comparing man to God, but, I am comparing love to God. Stop throing it around …. Its deeper than the three words.