Barack Obama is president of the United States of America.
So sad, but McCain conceded.... oh well.
I want every paper in the world on my doorstep.
Wow!
Im speechless.
Even in Japan, they love Obama!
04 November 2008
03 November 2008
change.hope.history.
today is november 4th 2008
it is the day that this chapter of history will be completed.
now, in the completion of history one of two things can happen,
the outcome is unknown right now.
but Barack Obama made history becoming the first black democratic nominee.
now, election day is here...
nervous.anxious.excited.
history in the making...
it is the day that this chapter of history will be completed.
now, in the completion of history one of two things can happen,
the outcome is unknown right now.
but Barack Obama made history becoming the first black democratic nominee.
now, election day is here...
nervous.anxious.excited.
history in the making...
01 November 2008
11.02.1986
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((written in the last moments of 21hood))
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As I think about my life in these days, in these times, I am eternally grateful for favor. I have chosen to start my new year off with a clean head, a clean heart, a clean spirit, a clean house, clean everything. I feel like age is irrelevant if you dont grow and mature. "When I was a child I thought like a child, [I acted like a child, I ate like a child, I played like a child, I did everything like a child]... but when I became a (wo)man..." Every day I praise God for the favor He has bestowed upon me. When I entered college all I planned was to graduate in May of 2008 with a job making at least what my parents spent for my first year of undergrad. Well, so far so good - I graduated in December of 2007 and had a job that started me out with a salary HIGHER than that of which my parents paid for my first year of undergrad. Halle! Now that, that is favor. As I look at my life I realize a few things (as mentioned in a previous post). But, there are things that I cannot change, I accept them, but for those things that I can change, I am making an honest attempt to do so. I am Garnet, genuinely affectionate, respectful, naive, energetic and tenacious ... and with qualities like that, why can't I have a perfect life. Now, God may not have made us perfect, but how exactly does one define perfection. God put me on this Earth with a mission and a purpose. As long as I try my best to fulfill that purpose, my life is perfect. My happiness is granted in everything that I do because all everything I do is going to work towards the betterment of society and fulfilling my purpose.
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I have noticed that I am talented. I can do things on my own. My parents raised me to be interdepent but dependent in my solidarity. I plan to keep moving in the direction I am headed because where can I go from here? Up! I can go up towards the heavens, because thats where my eternity lies. I can go up towards educational advanacement because I have the ability and drive to do so. I can go up on the health chart - why not live a full healthy life? I mean hey, I do control that! I can go up on the fun chart ... everything I do can be fun, I mean, the only people that get bored are boring people, right Mo? I can go up in religion, up in spirituality, up in fashion, up in honesty, up in friendship, up in interdependency, up in familial respect, up in love, up in life. And as my numbers go up and up and up, I plan to grow and mature and season myself into "one that leaves people speechless, not because they don't have anything to say but because the words they think up are not good enough." I want to live a life to make those that preceeded me in death happy. I want to live a life that makes my parents proud. I want to live a life that puts a smile on my brothers face. I want to live a life that makes me happy. But, most importantly, I want to live!
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I no longer want to exist, because, quite frankly, I think thats what I have been doing. I do not want to plan so much, I just want life to happen. I do not want to control much, I just want things to fall into place. I do not want to restrict myself, why not try everything once? I want to live in prosperity. My favorite number is two so I claim this to be one of the best years of my life. I said once that I made the best choice to come to Japan, now, I am making my next choice my even better best choice ... to live, love, laugh ... that is my goal for the next 365 calendar days, and the beginning of the rest of my life.
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Not sure of how many people will read this, or even care that I wrote this, but I do know this will be the happiest birthday I could possibly have. I love me and you should too ;-) Happy birthday to the jewel that was created 22 years ago today.
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Love.
28 October 2008
iDig.
[Tears are words the heart can't express...
music is love in search of a word...]
copyright .Zing. 2008
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iDig simply because the truth is resonating through these words.
iDig because music is the best expression of feelings,
but it never says what people can read,
just fills you with a feeling of definition.
Tears are simply a way of your heart speaking truth.
you hear it. you feel it. you want to speak it,
but, there are no words.
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as i remember Dean [Dr.] Zenobia Hikes,
Gerald Miller Bailey,
Lille Mae Tabor,
Willis Clinton Tabor,
Henry C. Conerway, Sr.,
Levy Belle Sullivan Conerway,
Terri George Mills Ossman
Felicia Robinson,
Arin Adams,
H. Eugene Conway,
Monet Little,
Desmond Brumsfield,
Feets,
the list goes on and on and on,
there are no words.
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You cry tears in the time of struggle,
because there are no words to express your pain.
You cry tears in your moments of joy,
because no words are good enough to express your happiness.
You cry tears in your moments of uncertainity,
because there are no to express your frustrations.
You cry tears at night,
sometimes because you cant find the prayer that God needs to hear.
You cry tears in the morning,
because you cant believe the thoughts you had last night.
You cry tears because-
the English language has yet to create the words that define your situation;
-but, God created music.
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God created music so you could feel the vibration,
the vibration that will add light to any situation.
God created music for that feel good moment,
that moment that makes you smile and completely describes-
possibly defines, your current situation.
God created music to help the mute speak-
God created music to help the studdering to speak clearly-
God created music to help that one person form a sentence of emotions-
God created music becuase it is a universal language,
it is the one language that u do not have to attempt to translate.
God created music so our hearts can communicate what our minds get stuck on.
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Tears are words the heart can't express...
music is love in search of a word...
[copyright .Zing. 2008]
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the wings to fly.
the ears to hear.
the eyes to see.
the hands to touch.
the fingers to feel.
the tongue to taste.
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tears + music create a life worth living.
i am because u are.
we are because they do.
it all makes sense.
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copyright.g.2008
love.
27 October 2008
.the.nia.of.SC....
Rest in Peace
Dr. Zenobia L. Hikes
our Spellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllman Sister
our NIA
26 October 2008
((re))visiting:.love.
[26, october, 2008]
Just a little motivation:
.man: I wanna woman I wanna be married
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woman: are u happy now? like in your state of your life? can u honestly say you are happy?.
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man: Happpy with what?
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woman: your life, in its entirety. are you, ---, happy?
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man: 95%
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woman: well in that 5% your wife will come, as i heard today, from joel osteen, when you can be 100% happy in the life you have God will grant you the life you want
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man: Really thts kewl
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woman: yea ... so like me, im in love with a man who i want to be my husband. but i figure if i become happy with our current situation and with myself ... someone (else) will want to love me. its like, my personal theory is this ... why not fall in love with yourself? i mean it is YOU that you want someone else to fall in love with, right? not on a conceited tip, but just generally. love your image. love your personality. love your intelligence. love your negativity and your positive picture. and im SURE someone else will fall for you ...
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man: That's deep....
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woman: thanks, but is also very simple. think about it, if every day you are like "i hate my body." why on earth would you think someone else would want to look at it?
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man: ok, so maybe im at 75%
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woman: lol ... so baby boy, get to 100% ... then u can get you a younger tender that can keep you living and stop you from existing.God isnt finished with you yet, thats why you are alive ... so make your days worth living! ya dig?
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man: I dig
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woman: and me, no im not worried, thank u very much. but i love love, i love family and i enjoy the thought of honestly being in love with my best friend (not in the literal sense) and the two of us having a great life together, for me its different, its like im experiencing life but its not really that fun to talk to anyone about what i experience .... i want that special conversation at night with that special person ... so, u will be married, and u will have a wife, pray on it and accept it, hard as simple as it is
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just my thoughts on another day.
love.
23 October 2008
villages.nightmares.blood.
[23 october 2008]
so, maybe you thought this was about halloweens near approach. or maybe it was about a student in my class. nope - its about family, and how much i love them.
i dont know if people know that i appreciate them but here i am going to make an attempt to name everyone that comes to mind .... my village, both then now and forever ;-)
((in no particular order))
...mommy (garnet known as mo): i love you honeybunches! now, if you have never met my mom she is the epitome of cool, the definition of fly, the last puzzle piece to the enigma we call life. my mom is like the best woman ever. she is super smart, like, forreal, dont try to play her in scrabble, and if u do, never challenge her, u will lose! but moreso than that she is my friend, not my bestest of bestest best best best but shes the bf. now, i have a bff, who i will get to later, but she is just (ma, there are no words). she is everything u want to be but you will never really get to her level because God created a new level for her that is just unreachable for the average person. she has taught me thinks that, well, i will love her forever because she taught them to me. (lol). simple things like, when i was 2(ish) I was fighting sleep once and she said "you know you can go to sleep when you are sleepy, right?" and i said "really? im going to bed now!" now, to you that may not be a big deal, but to me it was like "ahhhhhh" the gates to heaven have let me in! she was that mom that always nursed you to health and never got sick. she was that mom that made sure she was on every field trip (except toronto, sorry) and always the group leader of everyone, lol. she was the mom that sold so many girl scout cookies I got tired and she passed them out. she was the mom that held me down through therapy, to make sure i still got into college. she is still that mom that proofreads all of my papers, calls me at random times just because she had something funny to say or a question to ask. she married my father, and Lord knows (well, ill get to him in a minute, *smile*). she raised 2 blood children, 9million sons, a gazillion babies, and some grandparents, all in a days work. my mom is the greatest.
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...popdiddly: ok so, my dad is the funniest man on the face of this earth. but unbeknownst (um, yea, you know what i mean) to most people, he may know more things than my mom ... real talk. he is the funny laid back guy that was at every concert, all the dinners, and luncheons, every daddy daughter dance, suffered through debutante dance lessons, took me shopping, bought me stuff, taught me instrumentation and musicality, helped me disect random animals, like EVERY fish that died in our fish tank, supported me through bates, renaissance, spelman, japan ... my dad is the greatest. love you man! he is that father that may not agree with what you are doing at the time, but before he lectures you he will find some way to slide in at least one positive message just to let u know he was listening and does care about your desires. he is the guy thatll scold you and make sure you know that what you did was stupid, but, at the end of the day, he loved you first. ive gotten so many traits from my father, im so glad God blessed me with him. its crazy how people say you cant pick your family, well, if i had to, id pick the same clowns that love me now. daddy is that one guy that you may never fully understand, but youre glad you get him enough. love you pops!
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...skipper-roo: henry, i love you. im not mushy, i promise, but i love you. i do. i am impressed by your drive and your intellect. you take your time to get there, but when you do, its the masterpiece that noone was expecting. i cant wait for you to have some rugrats, i think you will be one of the best fathers on the face of this planet. you are definitely someone i have always looked up to and will always. mom and dad always used to tell us "we are gonna die, but you will have each other forever, you are each others best friends and you better keep it that way." in our own screwed up little situation, we are best friends. now, do we know everything about one another? no! but trust, im gonna hold u down and i know you will hold me down, its in our blood.
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...POODA: oh you thought bff was gonna be revealed? ha! yeah right ... ((yes mom, you know who the bff is... home depot, pizza hut, computers.... yea think about it)). well, hes my bff, i love him dearly. he is everything you never wanted but something that you always needed. he understands me and i understand him. thats that. i love you.
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... sexy six: crichet, ron b., california sunshine, courtie bourtie, noey .... wow, its been so long. you all are blood, as far as im concerned, you all love me in some strange way, but im glad you do. i dont see u enough or say it enough but i love you all.
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...tabor/conerway/conway/briggs/ice..... too many names but they all rooted from somewhere, i love you. its too many to give you each a paragraph but i love you. i love you. i love you. thank you for loving me too.
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...extended family: thank you for the job reccommendations, the recommendation letters, the babysitting jobs, the road trips, the food, the beds, the cars, the dates, the outtings, the everything. i dont have enough words and enough energy to begin to say thank you to everyone, but if you dont know i love you I LOVE YOU!
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...southfield moms&mentors: i was talking to a friend last night about a situation. you often wonder where your feet will take you, but its always interesting to find out. i do know one thing, i love you guys. if i took the letters out of your titles you would still hold me down and that is why i can say i love you and will see you soon .... love.
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im sure there are more people that i love and i cant call by name, forgive me. but know you loved me first, or maybe i loved you first, but the point is we are loved, by each other, today! i love you, i thank you, i miss you.
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just thoughts, just love, just me
sayonara.
so, maybe you thought this was about halloweens near approach. or maybe it was about a student in my class. nope - its about family, and how much i love them.
i dont know if people know that i appreciate them but here i am going to make an attempt to name everyone that comes to mind .... my village, both then now and forever ;-)
((in no particular order))
...mommy (garnet known as mo): i love you honeybunches! now, if you have never met my mom she is the epitome of cool, the definition of fly, the last puzzle piece to the enigma we call life. my mom is like the best woman ever. she is super smart, like, forreal, dont try to play her in scrabble, and if u do, never challenge her, u will lose! but moreso than that she is my friend, not my bestest of bestest best best best but shes the bf. now, i have a bff, who i will get to later, but she is just (ma, there are no words). she is everything u want to be but you will never really get to her level because God created a new level for her that is just unreachable for the average person. she has taught me thinks that, well, i will love her forever because she taught them to me. (lol). simple things like, when i was 2(ish) I was fighting sleep once and she said "you know you can go to sleep when you are sleepy, right?" and i said "really? im going to bed now!" now, to you that may not be a big deal, but to me it was like "ahhhhhh" the gates to heaven have let me in! she was that mom that always nursed you to health and never got sick. she was that mom that made sure she was on every field trip (except toronto, sorry) and always the group leader of everyone, lol. she was the mom that sold so many girl scout cookies I got tired and she passed them out. she was the mom that held me down through therapy, to make sure i still got into college. she is still that mom that proofreads all of my papers, calls me at random times just because she had something funny to say or a question to ask. she married my father, and Lord knows (well, ill get to him in a minute, *smile*). she raised 2 blood children, 9million sons, a gazillion babies, and some grandparents, all in a days work. my mom is the greatest.
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...popdiddly: ok so, my dad is the funniest man on the face of this earth. but unbeknownst (um, yea, you know what i mean) to most people, he may know more things than my mom ... real talk. he is the funny laid back guy that was at every concert, all the dinners, and luncheons, every daddy daughter dance, suffered through debutante dance lessons, took me shopping, bought me stuff, taught me instrumentation and musicality, helped me disect random animals, like EVERY fish that died in our fish tank, supported me through bates, renaissance, spelman, japan ... my dad is the greatest. love you man! he is that father that may not agree with what you are doing at the time, but before he lectures you he will find some way to slide in at least one positive message just to let u know he was listening and does care about your desires. he is the guy thatll scold you and make sure you know that what you did was stupid, but, at the end of the day, he loved you first. ive gotten so many traits from my father, im so glad God blessed me with him. its crazy how people say you cant pick your family, well, if i had to, id pick the same clowns that love me now. daddy is that one guy that you may never fully understand, but youre glad you get him enough. love you pops!
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...skipper-roo: henry, i love you. im not mushy, i promise, but i love you. i do. i am impressed by your drive and your intellect. you take your time to get there, but when you do, its the masterpiece that noone was expecting. i cant wait for you to have some rugrats, i think you will be one of the best fathers on the face of this planet. you are definitely someone i have always looked up to and will always. mom and dad always used to tell us "we are gonna die, but you will have each other forever, you are each others best friends and you better keep it that way." in our own screwed up little situation, we are best friends. now, do we know everything about one another? no! but trust, im gonna hold u down and i know you will hold me down, its in our blood.
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...POODA: oh you thought bff was gonna be revealed? ha! yeah right ... ((yes mom, you know who the bff is... home depot, pizza hut, computers.... yea think about it)). well, hes my bff, i love him dearly. he is everything you never wanted but something that you always needed. he understands me and i understand him. thats that. i love you.
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... sexy six: crichet, ron b., california sunshine, courtie bourtie, noey .... wow, its been so long. you all are blood, as far as im concerned, you all love me in some strange way, but im glad you do. i dont see u enough or say it enough but i love you all.
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...tabor/conerway/conway/briggs/ice..... too many names but they all rooted from somewhere, i love you. its too many to give you each a paragraph but i love you. i love you. i love you. thank you for loving me too.
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...extended family: thank you for the job reccommendations, the recommendation letters, the babysitting jobs, the road trips, the food, the beds, the cars, the dates, the outtings, the everything. i dont have enough words and enough energy to begin to say thank you to everyone, but if you dont know i love you I LOVE YOU!
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...southfield moms&mentors: i was talking to a friend last night about a situation. you often wonder where your feet will take you, but its always interesting to find out. i do know one thing, i love you guys. if i took the letters out of your titles you would still hold me down and that is why i can say i love you and will see you soon .... love.
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im sure there are more people that i love and i cant call by name, forgive me. but know you loved me first, or maybe i loved you first, but the point is we are loved, by each other, today! i love you, i thank you, i miss you.
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just thoughts, just love, just me
sayonara.
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